Blazon out !

At the place of your defeat,
I sat down and cried.
When the history became the narrator, 
I bent down and wooed.


Winners move out alone, so I.
No credit, no *roars* of victory. 
Winners weep alone, so I. 
When the triumph becomes *inevitable*, 
and thence winners fight alone, so I. 
When the tears *engraft* the doom, 
winners resurrect alone, 
winners fete alone, so I


When I lost my mind, 
When he smiles in front of my *thwarting*,
I knelt down to ask *hoist*,
I begged for another *triumph*

I abused and then ..

This pic is taken in the consequence of the 'wtf' I wrote on my notebook .. and after that I felt 'alarming' .. Really ?? I'm *confused* suchiii mein ..   when I was taking my embedded systems course early in the morning ..It was totally boring lecture ..really ^_^ .. Yaqeen karlo mera pha-leez :(
Even Sir called my name and asked me to listen to him for just few minutes .. :P and then I said like WTF I'm doing today .. It was a 'self-abuse' :P Look people abuse themselves too :D But 'WTF' wow .. Is it justifiable ? haan na? eeee :D So officially we've started abusing now :P .. Interesting ? *hehe* ..
This was the thing I hated the most .. and now I use it frequently .. Why ? bhala duniya mein something ever happens randomly ? No ?? Yoooo .. you're right .. Every thing happens for a reason .. Great ! now we've *mutafaiq-ed* on one common 'point' .. SMILE *wearing cap* .. So so so .. Reason batao fahad yaar Sorry for all the irrelevant bakwas :P.. and the Reason is 'WTF' is somehow became 'glamorous' .. *confused* ?? meri har baat pay na ? :( Glamorous means .. 'nudity' .. 'vulgarity' .. and the thing that 'attracts' you and 'steals' your 'heart beat' .. *Wink* ;) so our nature catches glamorous things very so often.
But we, you and I don't even know that by following this tradition .. We're falling off in our own eyes. Nahi ? Maan lo na pha-leez .. :P
ME too obviously .. sad na ?? :( But kia kiya jay ? LET'S CRY ? Nahi ? So Let's 'design' our compaign against these 'glamorous abuses'..
Agreed ?? Now how ? Pick up a pencil and paper and write those stuff that force you to abuse ..
Like 'Frustration' nahi ? It happens na ? Yes I knew .. Look I'm smart na ^_^ .. and then focusing on the 'lame' stuff that has nothing to do with our 'cause' .. and after committing that we 'abuse' .. hena ? yaaay .. Now we've discovered some stuff that is out of box .. Look You're capable of launching a hunting expedition ^_^ .. akhir hum 'shikaar' he to kar rahay hein na ? :D
ab ? What to do ? Now note down the things that you would recall in order to give 'suggestions'
to your brain that this 'stuff' is 'harmful' for you .. What suggestions ?? now 'WTF' is this ? :P hawww phir gaali :P Bad bad :P ..
If you keep on saying something or somestuff with a low tune or frequency .. your brain starts accepting it ..
and it 'obeys' what you've said before .. Resulting the 'programmed' brain what we call in Software thingy ..
That's how you train your brain to let you stay away yourself from F*** thingy .. phew :P .. and that's how I worked years before ..
but now I'm lazy enough to work on it .. :D
Hope you won't follow it .. as all this stuff was bakwas or 'bongi' .. :D


Ditch those who left you !!

I never understood the true purpose of 'sad poetry' and articles full of tears written by some of bloggers but my 'stewpid' brain can just perceive that the only reason for this is, when someone gets ditched in love, he or preferably 'she' starts writing 'rondo' poetry -.- So my today's article is 'against' girls :P who spoil themselves just because of one person who used them like a tissue paper ..
               Umm .. wait wait.. you might be thinking that 'shaid' I also got dumped by 'someone' :P Normally boys don't do 'that' stupid things as it is supposed to be stick to girls :P  .. twitter forced me to be a blogger as everyone there has a blog  .. 
                Therefore Let's 'rag' the psyche of girls who act weird ..  If somebody or any 'boy' has desolate you, don't waste your time by flowing out your tears.. He would be pleased that you have made him special by flowing out your tears and in that consequence losing off your skills that would benefit your sincere ones .. Thus its time for you to take .. Its time for you to ditch him off .. or if you ain't able to do that .. be what he stopped you from being .. you are so sweet in your self.. 
I'll just say..  
Stand up ..  
you have got to manage  
Life doesn't end up on a single crap .. Find out another one :P .. Whenever he comers up to your mind, use your middle finer ^_^ 
It is you 'who is responsible for this 'condition' not he .. Do not make yourself victim of sufferance and learn the art of 'don't care' .. -.-

My bakwas ends up here :P

When the ecstasy starts !!

4years earlier, history was amazed,astonished..
To whose name was to be Written in it..
The man with a 'lost' identity ..
OR a rescuer of faith..
Yet, salvager was still to be failed..
As his religion was the true succeeder..

On your way !

When the way to your terminus vanishes ..
When the solitariness in your way spifflicates you ..
In that respect, pissing off to your sincere ones is a sin ..
In that manner,lay a new way with your scarlet eyes..

Blogger Award ^_^

I'm honored as Stand Alone gave me my first blogger award ^_^ .. 

I say thanks to Stand Alone for this award :)

Our first 'confrontation' !

I might, i might struggled to convince .. 
But now forthwith, you stutter in front of the silence of mine .. 
That night, that night you were rising .. 
Today, today you're screaming for rescue..

When efforts go down
When prayers lose its vividness
When backing off gets inevitable
When wailing is of no use
In that way,strengths of the backs were testing
In that way,retreat is an enemy's delight
In that way fighting on toes will be a self rescue
In that way, prayers to be supported by actions

Follow the 'path'

Once upon a time, i was on a trip to northern areas. We went for hiking,there were glaciers,rocks etc. When i was supposed to cross the glacier. 
There were two paths, one that was followed my fellow hikers and the local residents who know the significance of that path, second was the path i thought to be more easier but i got slipped and terrified. Then i realized that the path that was made by local residents should be followed as they know how to cross the glacier .. 
Similarly this world is made by God, so we have to follow the path that was chosen for us by Him. 
If we want to 'cross' this world with ease.

People who loose their 'credit' !

There are many people who do good and who want to do good, but what happens to them ?? why they don't seem to us ??
Because they loose their credit, after doing good work they just regret on that or they just turn their heads back and finally getting no rewards on it, and if this happens, their self confidence vanishes and next time they don't try to work on good deeds, making life miserable for themselves and I am included in the list of those people too :) So do not regret on your good deeds.

'God knows the best' !


Great insult, grouching and all, and when I viewed the blog of a girl who commented on my post and there was something called 'gratitude', the feelings with what I was barren  and I got to realize that i am the cheapest, worst ever person available on earth but still Allah does not want me to quit. I don’t know why I never knew why I was given all that. Indeed I never deserved that but sill 22 years of befuddling, sorrows, and repentance, Allah wants me to stand,  He wants me to fight and He wants me to never say die,  I couldn't understand this ever I don't know for what I was born for and I am supposed to be. The day when I born and then adopted and the education I got that could not be given to my sister and brothers, yet I am loosing, yet I am yielding.. I concede.. I regret but yet could not be able to defy.

Verily, you will not die until Allah does not take from you what He wants you to do.. 'This isn't a Qur'anic verse'.

So let's not waste the credit we deserve and do it with the sequential way or we will be forced to do that ..
*The only name that would remain is of Allah*..

Gleamy Morning !

That Night, When the breath occludes..
That Night, When sky nictates its supercilium with marvel..
When,the drab night was about to vacate..
Then, I saw him ascending on the high rock..

Whisper ..

Saw the moon sinking in clouds that night
when sky *whispered* the good news of triumph
   with the defeat of that person
i saw the glowing face of the winner

*Lust* was about to *extinguish*
and his cause was astir to *flourish*

Why we ???

Many of us complain about other mortals surrounding us as having a negative mentality or pessimism .. But we never thought that why one thinks negatively or what makes him to think like that .. Resulting optimists fighting a war against pessimists.. Haww inay baday ho kar bhi ladai ?? Shame shame :P

I am a pessimist unfortunately. I regret *as I always do after doing bad* :P but no optimist ever tried to change me as ‘dafa karo dobnay do hamara kia jata hai’ :P ..

 I, we and the pessimists think negatively when continuously same things happen again and again resulting in shun.  Optimists have better capability to abide so because of this sustainability optimists are optimists. Whilst as no human is same by face by heart same as no one is same by means of encephalon. So could you please help pessimists in sorting off or ‘mitti pau’ as you will say by your heart after reading this post  :P

A pessimist :P

Roar !

When her faith tried to falter
It was him who came to rescue
when one was going by shaking his head
It was him who had the final laugh
and when the day began
It was him who had the roar of great triumph

At the beginning !!

He was imagining his defeat
yet, the hope continued to prevail
was requiring a desperate rescue,
as the final whistle blew
and the man who always rescued others from drowning
couldn't get a rescue from the elite
nevertheless,started crying by keeping his head on his thighs !! 

Rescue !

In the midst of nights,
in the pleasant falls of October
one was dancing with the prostitutes
other one was scheduling his dreams
when his religion was trying to succeed
some one was imagining his defeat
As the bell rings
the dance gets silenced,
and the symbol of victory roars in the air


To a Convertee !

In the darkness of night
And the day light, i saw
Eloise becoming Marium
With the wind blowing from the west
I saw Eloise prostrating
In the moonlight i saw Eloise’s glowing face

Turning Down

When the tides of river PUSH you ..

When your feet diddle at the peaks of the rocks .. 

When the perishing wind tries to GET over you .. 

In such way,don't feel like defeated .. 

as the history of ours is, 

unaware of defeats, loss, disappointment and turning back


In the utter cold nights of December
A dream was seen coming to life 
when the pouring rain falls
destiny saw him coming towards it
when it was utter dark night

as a hand cannot see the other
that empyrean saw him coming towards defeat in his red tumid eyes